Well, I still have some things I need to do before I am really happy with my level of attractiveness, but I am confident that I can be attractive. Thanks for all the pep talks BTW.
I am battling loneliness right now. I guess it is going from hanging out non-stop with other people to being in an office sitting in front of a computer most of the day. Its weird because there are students all around me, other faculty, internet friends, etc. I guess I just have this real strong urge to just completely open up to someone and let it all hang out. All my fears about the future, little things that I enjoy, goals in life, most intimate desires, etc. I guess it would be logical for that person to be my W, but she can't. She is still too tired, to worn out mentally by being with the kids, focused on dealing with problems/issues at that level. Not to mention that I'm not sure at this stage it would be a good idea for her to hear all my weaknesses, about the low self-esteem that crops up from time to time, and the depression that still lingers faintly in my heart. I guess I am just describing the human condition. At our very root, our very core, we are alone. Others can help us or harm us along the way, but in the end, we are alone. No one else can ultimately make us be happy with ourselves, or be content that our life was worthwhile. I think that is probably the hardest thing in life to acheive.
Chrome
"Recollect me darlin, raise me to your lips, two undernourished egos, four rotating hips"
