I think I am just having a touch of Lil-ism, wondering how I can truly validate my own sexuality without my W. I have no problems seeing myself as an attractive person, but that's not quite the same. I know I'm just jumping the gun again, the W and I are still really early in the game. Again, its just hard when it seems like validation would be so easy with others. I know people say that if you start a new relationship you will just recreate all of the same problems. But the difference with me is that I am a new person, almost nothing like I was for most of my marriage. My low self-esteem is pretty much out the door, except for a few spurts here and there.
Note, I am not saying this to indicate a desire to terminate my M, far from it. I am going to try to make this work with every last bit of my energy. I'm just floudering a bit right now.
Chromo-cuda
"Recollect me darlin, raise me to your lips, two undernourished egos, four rotating hips"
