Don't be too hard on yourself. The very same day I told you not to snoop, I did, and found some questionable emails, and the rest.....
I kept the promise for 3 weeks,and was doing well...I should NOT have snooped...in the end, even if H is lying, it's still not justification for me to violate his privacy. BUT...I see where you and I are....trust is LOW. We are in protection mode for ourselves. It's human nature to not put yourself into the same dangerous situation...it's why we have a memory.
Be forgiving of yourself. Just make sure that whatever action you take as a result of new information doesn't damage your R or take it in a direction you don't want.
You've been amazing in all that you've done and how far you've come...with such introspection, wisdom and real changes. Don't be so hard on yourself. It's OK.
