Feeling Alone in my marriage

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Today has been a good day again. Still keeping up a good attitude. Still trying to act "as if" at times when I do not get the emotional responses I desire. Last night while the family watched a movie I climbed into his lap. He repositioned me and began patting my bottom. This may not seem like much but any affection is wonderful and soothing. He watched tv in bed with me last night and was spooning and cuddling all night. This doesn't happen as much as it used to so I truly appreciate it. He was very affectionate. I try to survive and not get miserable between his affectionate stages. Seems to be working, as long as I don't go off on a tangent it seems his demeanor stays even as well. And we even had a minor incident at a wedding last weekend, so I thought that we would be miserable for a while afterwards, but I stepped it up right after. He was also drinking at the wedding so I think that contributed to both the incident as well as the quick recovery. It just seems that when something happens he is quick to say we "never" saw eye to eye and that we "always" fight on holidays or outings like that. I always say that is wrong and I remain calm and reasonable, not like the old me. Seems to really help, even if it is hard sometimes. I calmly explain my version of events or how it made "me" feel with "I" statements. Very effective most of the time, even if he doesn't necessarily agree with me. And p.s., I have lost 5 lbs to date on my diet. God is it hard at times! But summer is here!