What am I thinking?

[hurtingagain]

You're so right. I can feel positive one moment and be so peeved the next. The rollercoaster. I've always seen us growing old together and fulfilling those retirement dreams with each other. All the sudden the floor drops out and what you thought was real was just an illusion.

I still love my H, but am starting to love myself, too. There comes the conflict. How can I respect myself if I let H do these things with no consequences???? I'm working thru this with C. Been keeping busy with some friends, which is hard, since they're all married with their kids and don't have lots of free time.

I joined divorce care group at a church and may go to some singles funtions they have to meet other potential friends.

Maybe this ISN'T the time to think, but just deal with my emotions. I can that I shouldn't make any rash decisions now. Thanks !!