Just want to say "Hang in THere"... Think you are going through a rough patch. All of us go through this phase of not having any hope. But as my stupid a$$ of a WAS says "As long as the papers are not signed, there is still hope". And this coming from my WAS. So, just maybe go and chill out for awhile.... and perhaps you will feel renewed vigour to fight for your M. You still believe in saving your M, I am sure...otherwise you will be posting here.
Go DARK, GAL and come back and see how you feel in a week??