I wish I had a dollar for everytime I uttered those same words. Why do we put ourselves through this? Simple we love our spouses. I look at it this way, do I love myself, yes I do. Do I want to be happy, yes I do. Who makes me the happiest? My wife. That's how I feel however only you can decide for yourself how much you are willing to take and for how long. Personally I'd rather spend a slew of miserable days with just a flicker of hope that I can reconcile with my wife, than to end things now and move on. But again only you can decide what's right for you.