I meant to add this earlier in this post to you as well. It's possible you may need a C (if you don't already have one, sorry I forgot if you are seeing one) to help you let go and accept NG for the wonderful woman she is. It's not easy to let go of that desire to have her be a certain way sexually for you, but sometimes it takes letting that "ideal" go completely and accepting that person for who they truly are and how they truly are before things really can change in your R....and that's not easy because then you feel like you are giving up on what you want....when really what you are so focused on never existed in this R to begin with, yet you still agreed to be with and marry NG as she was, at that time, anyway.
