I'm just going to throw this out there because well...it needs to be said.
Some people simply don't have that sexual craving (I can't think of a better word right now) to want to give their partner a BJ....some people don't think about wanting to jump their partner sexually either. You do, that's apparant, that's who you are sexually....and I understand that....but what if NG just simply isn't one of those people who craves sex in that fashion? What if she is truly one of those people (and there are many of them) who is a genuine desire after arousal person?
What if...what you are wanting is simply not who she is Barn? I've noticed NG has been on the boards lately (welcome back)...so she can of course answer this for herself....but what if what you are wanting of her is truly not within her power to give you?
The reason I say that is this....back in the day when I was LD I couldn't have even imagined doing what it sounds to me you want...if I'm hearing you correctly. I couldn't have told my H "I'd been wanting to give him a BJ"...because it simply wouldn't have been true, it wouldn't have been genuine and he'd have known it. However the thought might occur to me at moment when we were already fooling around that he would like one and I'd ask or do it....but I'd be much more likely to "want" to do it for him after we'd aleady got going and I was aroused and thinking in that sexual frame of mind. I believe I read somewhere that NG said she is desire after arousal type of gal (correct me if I'm wrong here).
Every C we've been to has asked me that question I asked you (what if what you want is simply not what who she is?)...I however could never tell them that I'd be ok with it. Why? Because I had glimpses of what my H was holding back, I already knew it was in him. Is what you are now wanting of NG anything she's ever been in the past?
