An uneventful weekend at the DN house. H woke up Saturday sick. That is never fun. He acts worse than our 1 1/2 year old! No further talk about MC. Thought I would give it a break. It's killing me not to bring it up though. H slept in our bed this weekend. Unusual for him, but I think it's because he's sick.

Friday night was good. Went to dinner with a friend and her husband. I have known her since 6th grade, it was good to talk. I feel like she is the only person IRL, that listens to me and understands me. Her husband said something that really made me want to cry. When I said that one of my biggest fears is to be a 30-year-old over-weight - single mom, he said "is that all you see yourself as?" And I honestly do. He just shook his head and said, "you are so much more than that." Wow. They both really made me see that I have such a distorted vision of myself. I need to do some work there. Perhaps a visit to Chome's Self-Esteem thread.

We haven't ML in over a week now. Our new "passion" lasted a whole two weeks! I have't had the urge to ML anyway. That is a wierd feeling for me.


"There are two types of people -- those who come into a room and say, 'Well, here I am,' and those who come in and say, 'Ah, there you are.'" Frederick Collins