Happy St. Patty’s Day! The ¼ Irish in me comes out today. There will be green-beer- drinking a plenty tonight! Having dinner with friends, girls night out. I am looking forward to it A LOT!
We actually had a good night last night considering major drama with S. Got to daycare and the teacher was yelling my name as I was coming up the walk. S fell and bit his tongue wide open. There was blood pouring everywhere. Ugh. This is the second time in the last month or so. I think he re-cut the same spot on his tongue. Must not have completely healed from the first time. Poor thing. He bled all over his teddy bear, which is light blue. He kept wiping the bloodstains with a tissue saying, “mama, wash?” He seems okay, but it was a horrible night. His tongue bled FOREVER!
H was very sweet to both of us last night. He knew it really scared me and spent a lot of cuddle time with me after S went to bed. It was nice. This morning I asked him to go to MC with me at my next appt. He said we would talk about it later, but he says he sees no reason why he wouldn’t go with me. That is a good step. He’s not saying no anymore. I will bring it up over the weekend. I would usually wait for him to bring it up, but I know better now. If I don’t bring it up, neither will he.
Quote: Feeling secure in another persons love. Funny how sometimes we miss signals that should make us feel that way. Or how it becomes a condition of comfort and acceptance of our own love for someone. Sadly in my case some of the things H does that makes him think I should feel secure in his love is exactly what makes me feel insecure and keeping him at arms length.
What does your H do to show you he loves you? Why does that make you feel insecure?
Quote: So romance and QT is something that you yearn for. Understandable. Romance is something we seem to loose in a relationship even though in some ways it is what lead us to the relationship so that missing element is interpreted in lack of interest.
Yes, I guess it’s something that I do need, more that I realized. I kept thinking it was just sex, but it really is something that has nothing to do with sex.
Quote: The thing about the flower and not out of the yard I am so different on. One of my enduring memories of my H was a time when we were so poor and it was Valentines Day. H who was bf back then came home bearing an armful of wild roses. He had stopped and picked on his way home. To this day that is better then anything he ever bought me.
Oh, don’t get me wrong. I am not materialistic at ALL. We have so MANY flowers in our yard from April to October, our house always has fresh flowers in it. It almost seems like he’s trying to pass off what we do all the time as “Oh look, I got you flowers”. Like it’s a joke almost. There have been times when he has specifically picked flowers out of the yard for me, like the mother’s day I was pregnant, etc…very sweet.
Quote: I noticed Gel jumped on the board so she will shake them up a bit I am sure!
I am sure she will!!
Make it a great one! Have a great weekend, I will be thinking about you!
Nicky
"There are two types of people -- those who come into a room and say, 'Well, here I am,' and those who come in and say, 'Ah, there you are.'"
Frederick Collins
