"What have you done to attempt to get your H to pay attention to YOU"
5 years of screaming, pleading, crying and whining hasn't worked.
And I'm ashamed to say that 2 years ago I got breast implants, grew my hair out and lost weight so I could be a size 6 and at 5'9" that's pretty darn skinny.
I know how pathetic that sounds. I still don't know why I even did that all in an effort to try and compete with porn girls he looks at on the internet. And the attention didn't last very long either.
I don't like the person I've become. I'm ashamed of myself, my groveling and putting up with this. But we have a family here and children and own a business together. I can't just walk away from all of that although there are days when that's all I want to do.
He KNOWS how hurt I am but nothing changes.
The biggest change I have made in the past week is to stop talking about our relationship and stop talking about sex and trying to GAL (I am reading books now, I went out on Sat with a gf for dinner and made an appointment with my Dr to get anti depressents because I am now very depressed). I know GAL isn't the answer to the problem, nor do I know if it will help but I don't know what else to do!
I thought this couldn't hurt or am I just sweeping this under the carpet and validating that what he's doing is OK?
