I am sorry to hear you are going thru a similiar sitch. I actually read you post on the pornography thread and had to double check who was posting it, you sound like a very dear friend of mine going thru this too.
It is sad to hear that your H doesn't even care enough to erase the history. That to me says that he doesn't care enough about the R to be "ashamed or guilty" anymore. I wonder if he leaves it there so you will say something to him about it?
"I've mostly stopped initiating sex for the past year because I wanted to take the pressure off of him and also it hurts to be rejected."
I can understand the part about rejection very well. I too, often don't even want to try b/c I don't want that rejection. But because you want to take the pressure off of him? What kind of pressure are you relieving him from? From having to deal with a W that want to ML to him? If that is the case I think you are letting him off way to easily.
What is it that you are relieving him from?
Nicky
"There are two types of people -- those who come into a room and say, 'Well, here I am,' and those who come in and say, 'Ah, there you are.'"
Frederick Collins
