First let me say, I love reading your posts! They are always very insightful, at least from my point of view. You seem to be able to verbalize what I am not. I have actually used your verbage more than once in describing my feelings to H and to MC. So thank you for being here and sharing. You are not wierd for thinking about other's sex lives over the weekend, I too wonder what everyone is doing, how things are going and anxiously await everyone's weekend update on Monday mornings! (especially Gel now!) Her posts are so encouraging.
Next, to answer your question:
"Really think is that EC there from both sides when you have sex? Or is it just durring sex that you PT LL is being meet so you feel some form of EC at the time."
There have been very few times that there is an EC during sex. The first time after I suggested we do something "new and exciting", it was definitely there. But since then it really isn't. Part of that is my fault, I find myself detatching from him. I have not let myself fully open up to him. I am too hurt. I feel like I am just sitting here waiting for him to make an effort. It is such small little things that he could do (that he did in the begining)...why doesn't he get it or if he does get it, why doesn't he care to do anything about it?
Nicky
"There are two types of people -- those who come into a room and say, 'Well, here I am,' and those who come in and say, 'Ah, there you are.'"
Frederick Collins
