I have the feeling that my H reconciled with me only to keep face. I think he loves me, but I also believe that he feels that our M has taken such a turn because of his actions, that he thinks it may be easier to walk away. We've talked in the past about renewing our vows and he asked me this morning if I still wanted to do that - fyi, I brought up the subject. Anyway, I said yes, of course and then I asked, do you? His response was "I don't know, should I"? What should I make of this? Something's not right, I feel it deep in my soul. Any take on this?
Bowtech, I'm a Christian and I pray quite a bit for wisdom and peace and for Christ to lead me - that's why I went back home. I felt led to do so, but I see things that maybe the Lord is showing me. After all, I've asked God to show me what it is I need to see. I have also asked God to help me in making the decision to stay or go. The way I see it is that I have every right, biblically, to leave. There was immorality, but I also know that I must forgive, which I work at daily, but my H is a cardnal christian, he doesn't even know if he's saved. Again, this is not God's will for me to mesh with a non-believer.
darkblue3, do you think he may be rethinking the reconcillation? He told me this morning, not to start on him. What? Am I suppose to snuff out my feelings and emotions. Am I suppose to not share my concerns with him? I can't live with a S who I have to pick and choose my topic of conversation especially when I know he is in a very depressed state of mind and he won't share! Do you thiknk the OW could be in touch with him again? Just a feelling that I have.
