I've been thinking a lot since OT's ouchy post. LOL She's right - I KNOW this stuff. Little Toto came back for a scrap.
As a result, I will do my best to go dim, dimmer, dimmest. I actually started yesterday. He called in the evening, spoke with the kids, asked for me. Ended the convo with "I'll call you later after work and wake you up" (said laughingly) ...so I was laughing and then said "I'm not sure why you do that, you don't have to ya know." He said "I don't know why either." Later on he emailed me something silly & goodnite -I never answered. He did end up calling, and asked why I never emailed him back, that he "kept going online for my response and checking his phone for texts". WTH??? I said that I didn't realize it was something that required a response. He said "Well you could have sent something - I like to hear from you." Whatever, dude.
This morning I've tried to stay off the computer as much as possible to avoid IM's & emails. Today, I have some appointments so I will be leaving shortly after he arrives. Him & his friend will also be finishing up the work on his truck, so I intend to stay far away from him. LOL
I really am tired of being strung along. However, if I'm all honest and crap, I make it easier for him to do just that. Is all this communication between us a cheeseless tunnel? I have a hard time balancing distancing and coming across as plain old b!tchy. I haven't found the happy medium yet. It always seems to be one extreme or the other.
OK...gonna leave the philosophical posts to GH today. I'm tired.
