For the most part, I have given up speculating. When he moved out - a lot moved out with him. A lot of MY issues, that is. I don't fret so much anymore. It's none of my business. At least, I keep repeating that to myself when it gets tough.
I guess I'm at the point where I'm wondering what's left for me to do, without actually working on an R; without an explicitly expressed interest from him. The changes I've made have been good ones, and I'm keeping with them. In all areas of my life - not just with him. Most importantly - controlling my reactions. That's a biggie. And while I still have slip-ups, they come less often or I recover quickly, with less damage. I see it in how I react to my kids, friends, family, etc. So that's good. And it was a big thing between us. So I don't know what's next. Where the line is...what borders on R behavior or good friend behavior; drawing in, shutting out - lots of unknowns.
It seems to me like a lot of the issues we had, can't be worked on unless there's a re-commitment between us. Issues of going out together (and his groupies!), his work, my work, other things that I don't know how to work on when not actually in an R with him. Difficult for me to actually get into words here. Sorry.
Anyway, I think I'm going to prime the master bathroom today. LOL That'll force me to get the paint later on this week. Kinda hard with 2 little one's running around, though. LOL The reality is, it will probably take me all day just to gather everything I need and get everything out of the bathroom just to start the priming. LOL
