Yesterday SO came over and he still had work to finish on his truck (him & friend changed the engine over the weekend). He asked me to help him for a bit in the garage (hmmm-like the old days - loL), so I did. Then he started getting frisky and I had come back in the house because I was trying not to. A little while later he came in and we ended up, well...
Later on when we were eating dinner with the kids, he made a remark that made me a little sad, along the lines of "I'm not constantly asking him to pack up & move out anymore".
Positives from the day: Said he'd want to go upstate with me & the girls to my niece's b-day party - kind of invited himself along for the weekend when I said we were going Grabbed my head and turned it so he could kiss my forehead when he was getting ready to leave (I was sitting on the floor of the bathroom giving the baby a bath) Apologized for not spending more time with me or kids today; said he didn't want me to think he was ignoring me because he has to do the work on the truck Emailed me from my own computer, lol, as I was still in the bathroom with the baby, so that I would get it after he left. Said the day was good. I texted him back after getting the email - he called & thanked me for the texts - said it's all good
I woke up this morning and realized he wasn't on air. His work also called here looking for him. I wasn't going to do anything, but he NEVER misses work. So I texted him asking if he was awake. He got to work a few minutes later and emailed me 1st with just "good morning". Then a little while later saying he wished I had called him and why didn't I (when he wasn't on air) - his alarm clock broke. Now, I don't usually call him. I am always afraid he may be with OW. Well - that's one of my main reasons for not doing so. (Today I didn't call because I didn't think it was MY job - lol). So, I point blank told him I send the texts instead because I don't want to intrude on anything.
He answered back - telling me to stop that way of thinking, I'm never intruding and call him whenever. I just said OK. It may appear as though I was seeking reassurance, but it wasn't. It's the real reason why I don't call him. And I thought he needed to know, for what it's worth.
As Oldtimer said - I don't know if all this contact is a good thing or a bad thing. I've been thinking about it a lot. His interest in going upstate with us has me curious. I didn't expect it or ask him - he invited himself.
I know he's still up on the fence - the question is, how much longer can I stay in this holding pattern. On one hand, if the contact is positive, heading towards more closeness, I don't want to shut him out. Then on the other hand - is it benefiting anything? I have to think about it some more.
