Whitelight - didn't see your post. Thanks for the ideas, but I can't even bothered. I think it's best for me to stay dark.
Chrissy - thanks. I think I'm finally getting it together. Yes, I have lots of questions, fears, regrets, and still some hopes, but it's time to push my insecurities to the side and move forward. I've based too many of my own actions around SO, it's time I get back to the person I was before he was in my life. Well, not exactly that person, but one that has some of those old qualities (independent, strong) mixed with the things I've learned recently. I only control ME.
OT - Thanks, as always. I have such a problem with detaching. He seems to want to blame me for everything. Everything WRONG, anyway. I like the way you described it. The friend analogy. It helps.
I don't have much to say today. I'm very tired. SO called a few times around midnite last night. I had unplugged the phone in my bedroom and didn't answer it. Yet I still heard the other phone ringing and it disturbed my sleep.
On a good note, my friend called last night and once again(!) my old company is looking for someone. I told her I was interested, so we'll see how it pans out. The only way that job would work for me is if it's part-time, and/or with me doing some of the work at home. Otherwise it won't be cost-effective. I'llhave to wait & see.
