Ellie, your story is such an inspiration...I'm so glad that you're life is so much better and I wish you all the best.
Your advice in the first post of this new thread is great...I myself am s-l-o-w-l-y coming to these same conclusions...not matter how much you read and follow advice, you need to come to the conclusion/committment on your own (or maybe I'm just stubborn).
Wonderful reading your story today! I hope to come through as well as you have!