I was just re-reading Just' old posts - if you do not mind, Just, for me to quote this - this is what it said:
"You might wonder why I am even here when I say that at this point I'm leaning towards not trying again. A lot of painful water went under the bridge. I'll give it a month, but honestly, she was so successful at pushing me away, that I don't know exactly what I feel for her anymore. I'm not sure she is in a place emotionally to make me fall in love with her again and she can't have me back without that. I gave her almost all of 2005. 2006 is mine. She needs to make an effort now to be part of it."
This is how I feel now. I wanted reconciliation so much but I am not sure at this moment if I still have such strong feelings left for H. And I cannot trust him either. So I guess this is very common and normal... H will have to PROVE himself though. I am not going through the hell I went through last year EVER AGAIN!!!!!!!!
