If I was there with you in person, I would just take you out to pasture and put you out of your misery.
I am just teasing. But seriously, what can we do so you can start seeing things through rose-colored glasses?
Please promise me that you will not talk about the relationship Friday. Yes, you can say it all again later, but not on Friday. Take things day by day for now. Enjoy the time with him. Don't do this to try and win him back. Do this so you can realize that "acting if" can put a whole new positive spin on things. Your mind can be so powerful. I know I said I hated Dr. Phil, but another good statement he makes.... "You will create what you fear."
I think your email that you sent him sounded perfect. Now, he acknowledged your boundaries and worries so let it go. There is no need to mention it again. You have a kind and sweet heart. I can just sense that about you through your writings. I think this is what your husband loves about you too.
I know how you are thinking. We all do! We were all just like you. Shoot, we still are! It is just easier to talk the talk than walk the walk. Your husband has stomped your trust into the dirt. You have got to forgive him though, or you are going to grow to be a bitter old lady. Do you want that! Just teasing......
I think his email sounded sweet by the way. You have done a good job now continue your hard work so you can be a success. We need another success on this board!
Enjoy your hard work for now! You are going to have plenty of posts on the piecing board when you wish things were as simple as they are today. Marriage is hard but it is better than being an old lonely maid. Then again maybe it isn't.
You got a date with your husband! What are you going to wear?
P.S. The part about him on his knees begging for forgiveness.....I am going to find a piece in a book that I read about this and post it for you. It helped me realize that your marriage can work without this ever happening. He is seeing things from his perspective not yours. I think he will apologize to you one day, but by the time he does, you will have probably already forgiven him. That's what happened to me. The lesson God is teaching you is about you not him.
