Thanks Just. Yes, as you can tell, I am chikening out....
I was doing well w/o H, so why am I feeling this way now? Guess I am in shock....
So I was thinking maybe I will just send him a short email (since H does not like heavy stuff...) simply saying:
"H, sorry Tuesday did not work out. I am available on XXX instead".
Then find a babysitter for S3, so that will not be an issue. If H asks for S3, then I can just say "well for now we can meet alone so that S3 can remain in his routine" or something. Then when we meet alone, if H wants to address the issues in our M, I can ask him some questions and also tell him that I do not want to break S3's heart again..., etc.
You know, the sad thing is that I cannot trust my judgement anymore after being beaten up pretty badly over the past 16 months! You are right, though, Just, I should not be worried too much. I am okay w/o H, and if he wants reconciliation, just b/c I could not give him what he wanted yesterday should not tick him off. If he is not okay with this, then he probably has secret agendas and his desire for reconciliation is not based on pure motives.
