We have a problem of inconsistency. H does not have a good track record. He says all these wonderful things he's going to do, then maybe follows through for 2 weeks then nothing. For nearly 5 years I looked out my windows at a backyard that was completely in ruins (he did this without consulting with me). It was too dangerous to even go out there. H promised me it would be finished before our 1st child was born (he's just turned 5). We got it finished last October. There are so many examples of this from other unfinished projects around the house to him saying he's going to come home early so I can have some time to exercise or whatever. This might last maybe 2 weeks, then nothing. If I want him to keep it up, I have to keep on his case. I shouldn't have to do this, I would rather he didn't make statements he can't follow through with. I'm going to be blunt here. If I'm going to want to have sex with him, I'm going to want a payoff. For so many years I've been let down, I'm not going to lower my guard without him being true to his words. I just feel used. Make sense or do I just seem cold?
I have to leave it there or I'll be late for work. I appreciate your replies
It can't come quickly enough
And now you've spent your life
Waiting for this moment
And when you finally saw it come
It passed you by and left you so defeated.
Scissor Sisters - 'It Can't Come Quickly Enough'
