Quote: "I realize your loss of libido is not your fault, but feeling desire and passion from my wife seems essential to me, and as a matter of integrity and self-respect I can't remain married to someone who doesn't feel that way about me."
In moments of clarity he has said things like this. The problem is where does he go from there? He doesn't want to live like this, but he doesn't want to leave either.
He told me to leave on Friday night and I did. We didn't have an argument as such, he just went off the handle because I didn't want to eat the vegetables he was making and I was answering him with yes, no answers. WTF? He was yelling and calling me disgusting names (in front of our kids), so I went upstairs, he followed, still screaming at me and I packed my bag. I ended up saying a few choice words back eventually and left. On the way out the door, he turns it around and says it's MY choice to leave. I can stay and be with my family or I can go.
Within 2 minutes I got a call from my mother. H had rung her because he felt guilty and wanted her to make sure I didn't sleep in the car. How nice (insert sarcasm here).
I am a big believer in not saying things you don't really mean, but H just can't help himself. I just wish he would realise how much it is hurting HIM when he does it. It's our anniversary next week. I couldn't give a sh*t. I suppose I'll get into trouble for that now.
It can't come quickly enough
And now you've spent your life
Waiting for this moment
And when you finally saw it come
It passed you by and left you so defeated.
Scissor Sisters - 'It Can't Come Quickly Enough'
I can stay and be with my family or I can go.