I think it broke. The camel's back that is. We just had another fight as I have not been the most wonderful person to live with the past couple of days (damn that time of the month). He wants me out and says I'm not fit enough to be a parent to our kids. I have heard this before many times. Anyway, during the midst of this argument, a huge lightbulb went off for me. He doesn't listen to me. Small things, important things, anything. He does not listen, then accuses me of not communicating with him. Pretty damn hard to have effective communication if one person is talking to a brick wall. For example, he was screaming at me that if I want to change my body (I wasn't even talking about my physical appearance) that I should get up at 6 am every morning and go running. This sh*t me big time as I have been making an effort to go walking with my boys (I mean I even told you guys!) over the last week. So I ask him 'what do you think I've been doing for the last week taking the boys to the beach?', he says I never told him. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. I told him every day we went, what we saw and what we did. What freakin more do I need to do? This is just one example, he forgets appointments and get togethers, saying that I never told him. I even write them on the calendar for pete's sake.
This is a big development but where do I go from here? How do you get someone to not only listen to you, but hear you?
I'm really considering just leaving, like he wanted. I don't know how much more of this I can take.
It can't come quickly enough
And now you've spent your life
Waiting for this moment
And when you finally saw it come
It passed you by and left you so defeated.
Scissor Sisters - 'It Can't Come Quickly Enough'
