Quote: Now, the resentment and anger has dissipated somewhat, but I am having a lot of trouble with the sex part. I don't look forward to it, it's not exciting and it feels like a chore - something that has to be done to keep things running smoothly. I don't get turned on, so how can it be a satisfying encounter for either of us emotionally or physically?
That's your problem right there. No one said this was going to be easy. You are the one getting in your own way. "I DON'T enjoy it, "I'm NOT turned on." Those are your words. And you reap what you sow.
Change your thinking. Change your attitude. No, it doesn't change overnight. It's not changing because you don't WANT it to change. Fine. It's cool. No one will hold it against you. But be accountable for your own actions and decisions.
Quote: I feel my body has let me down and my brain isn't far behind.
Self-loathing won't get you anywhere, either. It's not your body. Unless you have some unknown medical problems... or side-effects of some meds you are taking... have you thoroughly checked this out?
