I am soo frustrated. Hubby is soo frustrated. If I could cut my bits off and give them to him in a box I would. Sorry. I am having so much trouble with initiating sex. I just want to sleep when we go to bed and can't get my interest piqued in anything sexual.
The choices I feel I have are, have sex to keep him happy even though I really don't want to, or don't have sex, make him happy and keep the peace. I feel like I'm chasing my tail.
H & I were on the couch last night watching tv and he started rubbing my breast. It annoyed the crap out of me. It always does. (Ever since breastfeeding - which stopped 20 months ago - I can't stand him touching them. In fact it is a huge turnoff. So there we were, both with the sh*ts. Him angry at me for 'acting like a rape victim' and me angry at him for doing something he knows I don't like and also angry at myself because I SHOULD like it.
So I'm gathering he is still angry at me now - Saturday afternoon - because we didn't ML this morning either. Not that we would have because the kids were up and one was crying in the room opposite.
I'm thinking that maybe my tail got docked somewhere along the way...
It can't come quickly enough
And now you've spent your life
Waiting for this moment
And when you finally saw it come
It passed you by and left you so defeated.
Scissor Sisters - 'It Can't Come Quickly Enough'
