HP... I feel you need to explain to your H that you are feeling down and that you could use some physical comfort. Don't wait for him to " get it." He won't. In fact, he may interpret your lack of enthusiasm in a personal/rejecting way. I know you want him to step forward to take care of you, and that you have gone through this dynamic a million times before...but in the meantime you are going without the touch that you need. You don't have to do a major shaking up...just simply ask him when a good time to ML would be. That's not being overly directing...it's being healthily proactive.
I take depression very seriously and don't want to see you sink further waiting for H to be the knight in shining armor.
