I feel about your last post, like I feel about many of your posts. You sound like someone who is emotionally exhausted, who has lost her will to even care what her own feelings are. You sound like someone who no longer loves her H. If that is the case, no wonder you need lube, not wonder you have no EC. You can't create that out of nothing.
I may be off base but that last post reminded me of my feelings in the last couple of years before I left exH. I had already mentally divorced him, his words, hopes, fears, desires bounced off of me like hail on the hood of a car. His touch didn't entice, didn't repel, it was neutral. I wasn't angry just done.
Are you done Chrissy? If so, isnt' it time to tell your H?
