I've been kinda busy posting about 5000 times on my own thread, so I'm a bit behind on yours. But I did notice you mention depression. Could you describe your depression? I went through a pretty serious bout myself back when the EA was going on and immediately thereafter and I may be able to help you sort through it some. And are you seeing a C about your depression? Sorry if you have already answered those questions, you could just point me to the posts in which you did.
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