One thing I do know when it comes to feeling safe with someone after they've treated you badly is this....it takes time to feel safe with that someone if/when they finally do change their behavior...and it CAN take quite a bit of time.
Honestly Chrissy, this isn't bashing ya but....from your posts I truly do get the feeling, you want out of this R. I simply am not getting the feeling that you want to invest anything else in it. So, I'll ask again....why are you still in it? Why aren't you moving on? What's keeping you from starting the new chapter in Chrissy's life?