Old age is so sad.

[Stigmata]

There are so many external factors that simply cannot be pushed aside.

- Yes they can Chrissy. Temporarily. Mentally. These external factors have no bearing on the path of your soul. That is between the conscious you and your soul to discuss. No one else is allowed/able to be a part of this.

External is what it is. External. Mentally lock yourself up in an empty quiet room and listen to what the internal "factor" is saying she wants.

Then it's okay to open the door and let all that noise of the kids, H, OP, "external factors" come rushing in. But you need that answer/discussion first. Will help steer your decisions as they relate to all of this external noise besides.

Here's an exercise you might want to try. Picture your own funeral, Chrissy. You've had a full life. So who is going to give your eulogy? What are they gonna say about Chrissy?

You are attending this. Who do you see in the audience? Since you can read minds what do you hear these people saying about you? Your life?

I know. I know. When I did this I felt like total sht. Makes you realize you've got from now till hopefully a long way off to fill that room with a lot of folks who are not mourning your death but celebrating such a full life.

But don't panic and think you have to rush. One step at a time. One small positive motion per day if you can--even if that just means thinking only positive thoughts all day.

If you do that, positive events and people in your life will in turn seek you out. It's a mysterious law of attraction.

-Stigmata-