This comment says so much to me.....(His solution is that I need to go to the doctors and get something that will make me horny for him.) It's obvious that he doesn't see that for you to feel "horney" for him you require that EC so many of us speak about....no pill is going to provide that. Heck the pills on the market right now don't even always work for women who do have an EC for their H and want to feel horney for them.
I'm going to be my normal honest self with you here Chrissy. I see you working your way towards ending this R. I just see this in the change of your tone when talking about your R. I guess the best way I can relate this is back to when I was inching my way up to getting out of my M with my XH. It's like....once I started thinking about something, it was merely a matter of time before that thought became reality.
There was so much lacking in my M to my XH (primarily due to the addiction to alcohol) that I finally reached what I call my point of no return when it came to trying anymore. I talked til I was blue in the face, but he didn't get it even though he said he did....his behavior would change for awhile....then right back to where it was. I tried and tried to find happiness in that R and just couldn't....not when dealing with an angry drunk any given night and every weekend. I guess I equate that to your H's anger/abuse issues.
At one point I finally got to a place where I was numb where he was concerned. I didn't care if he came home, preferred he pass out asleep early in the evening when he was drinking so I wouldn't have to deal with him.....and couldn't wait for the times he'd go fishing on the weekend with his best friend so I could have some peace.
I see you doing some "inching" out of the R, just as I did. Although I believe you are in a slightly different frame of mind than I was because you are at least saying "it doesn't have to be the end". For me, I knew it was. I suspect though, that if either of you does move out....you will like your freedom and you will move on.
