This game will get you nowhere you want to be.

Your H has been coding you for quite a while now. You have made efforts that I can see as you being direct and honest with your H.
For a minute or two.

Ditto for him.
What you seek from him, he also wants from you. IMO.

If you want this M to be over then end it. If you want to sabotage your M like I did mine, the first time, then keep on keeping on.

I still dont see your H as 'the bad guy'.
I think you have the skills to make this M healthier.

why does it look like I am getting stuck with this house and mortgage.
another perspective would be
I care for her and the kids. Im not going to kick her out. I cant figure out how to fix this. She doesnt hear me. So Ill go.

Who knows.
The crossroads is getting closer.