For the last few weeks I have had a sickly feeling in my stomach that has become so strong that it is almost overwhelming. It has become almost like a unseen longing that is breeding almost discontentment in me. And frustration the sad part I don't know what is at the base of these feelings. In my quest to be more open to go with and embrace my emotions instead of stuffing them or not recognizing them I am becoming overwhelmed and frustrated. And let me tell you I am not enjoying it. Things that I usually do just to bid my time away mindlessly are even becoming a source of discontent.
I don't even know what anything I feel is in relationship to. I just have a sick feeling in my stomach that is growing to the point of taking over my every thought. I feel like I am ready to hurl or explode one of the two at all times it almost hurts. But I cannot pin point why. Guys this sucks to the point it makes my skin crawl.
Is this at all about my relationship that is causing these feelings in me. Dam I don't know I don't think so. Is it effecting my relationship oh yeah. It is pushing me to be heard. The only problem is I don't even know what I am trying to say.
I keep having to fight the urge to just sleep through all these feelings or run just get in my car and run. Where? Why? arrgh I don't think I like this emotional quest if I am not going to understand why or what I am feeling!
Sorry just needed to vent to say it and see if it makes more sense in writting.
