We were good drinking partners with french benifits. So in essense I am just paying for my previously loose morals if you go all the way back. My bed to lie in. That response says a lot about why you are living like this Chrissy. Sounds to me like you don't really believe you deserve better. Until you work on that self-esteem (Hi Chrome!), you will never reach a place in your R that will feel satisfying to you.
