Let me guess. When you first met him you were attracted to certain aspects of his personality. You liked that he had forceful opinions, he didn't mince words. I'll bet he could be very charming
Well no he was just a party pal that I started sleeping with and ended up pregnant by the rest is history. The relationship never held long term qualities from my side. We were good drinking partners with french benifits. So in essense I am just paying for my previously loose morals if you go all the way back. My bed to lie in.
Lots has changed since then we no longer drink for one. That is a big one (I have considered starting again). We no longer live a party atmosphere. We have butt loads of responsiblities to not only our selves but our kids. And gosh that list can go on and on.
Our foundation is rocky. I am not trying to get back to that. But you would think in 17 years we could have grown from that point and formed some form of EC and solid foundation by now. Or atleast real friendship and a little depth to our relationship
