Nope I am projecting what I want to feel not what I think I should.
Its not just based on thought. I have been promoted and not only did not feel a great urge to share this with who should be my best friend and mate. Never even thought of it he found out months after the fact. I have been away from my H for extended periods of time one time on and off for months. And never got excited at the thought of seeing him. Never just missed his voice.
Okay so I have not experienced the he died thing, But when say he is really late and I think well wonder if he got in a accident. My inter response is well someone will call. No pang of omgishness.
Sorry I want these feelings. I want all these things to matter to me within my relationship and feel like we are both being short changed without it.
Is this logical maybe not. But sharring nothing but a house and a bed and parental responsiblities being the basis of a relationship does not seem logical to me either. I thought a marriage was about sharring your life your hopes and dreams your tears and your laughter. None of that lives in this house.
