Maybe it is the lack of exceptance in this relationship.
My H does not except me for who I am he wants to change me. I hold guilt in that two. I do not except my H as he is. I have fought his controlling and manipulative behavior from the begining. Have been more resolved to deal with it then fight it and now am walking back into the fighting it stage at this point.
Maybe it is my lack of connection that I feel with my H and my inablity to find a way to connect with him.
Or maybe it is just me and nothing to do with the relationship. Maybe I want my cake and to eat it to. I have a H that financially supports me loves me adores me maybe that should be enough. Maybe this longing I have for something deeper then that is just me being unrealistic.
Or maybe I need to stop listening to songs like Nicklebacks Savin me and James Blunts Cry and I will be able to get a better grip of emotions and deal with what is a bit better.
