Yes you are right that statement gave my H more responsibility then intended.
Better wordage should have been I want my relationship with my H to contain that same element that can make me feel so not alone. I really am not trying to find the difference in the people as much as the relationships. The people are as different as night and day to a large degree though they do have some simular traits. Physical and personality.
Circular illogic
More like pure illogic not just circular.
And your mind set is already skewed negative, feeding resentment
Skewed negative yeah I see that but I really don't feel resentment more desperation at this point. I am at my breaking point in this relationship truth be told. Not sure why things are no worse and even better in some ways then 8 months ago. But it is sorta like now that I have sorted through some of side effects of carrying all this baggage around I know have to deal with the real issues and face my emotions. Habit would have me to pick up the bags and carry them a little futher just to avoid this. But I don't want to do that yet I don't really want to or know how to deal with all the illogical feelings I am having like discontent, feeling short changed,confussed ect. Again my mind is running circles just not logical ones lol.
How you never felt alone around him back then?
I have felt alone 90% of my life. I am one of those people who can be in a room of people and still feel 100% alone. There was never a time I did not feel that way in this relationship (in my soul). There are only two people I can think of that in there presense I did not feel this way. A very good girlfriend of mine and my EX.
Think positive girl
I think my positive thinking button is stuck right now. Maybe my planets are unaligned right now causing me choas.
Oh by the way watched a show on church excepted stigmata's the other night. Guess I never realized the church has only ever sanctioned one true stigmata (St Francis) oddly though it has given saint status to others without acknowledging there stigmta formally.
