Yes seeing my grama was terrible. And I would never desert her no matter how terrible it is to watch her in the state she is in. She would never do that to my either. I was the one person who she does not see everyday that she knew who was. My daughter my neices and my sisters she remembers on and off. But my mother and myself she knows at all times. At least for now.
How much does your H know about the emotional turmoil you just went through
He asked how my grama was. I told him it was terrible to see her strapped in a chair. Thats about as far as the conversation went. He was not seeming all that interested. And I am long done begging for him to show a interest in things that do not involve him directly.
You express yourself beautifully here...are you able to share yourself at home? What would happen?
Thank you for the first part. Expressing myself is something I am trying to come into IRL. Hear it is writting and I have always used that as a outlet.
Could I express myself at home yes but it would still be different. Here people prompt me to explain myself expand on what I am saying and encourage me to dig a little deeper into whats whys hows and whens if need be. At home there is a lack of that type of support that supports understanding your feelings.
and what you are responsible for, is your happiness.
What is hard is some of the things that would help me along the journey to this are things that will effects others. And I feel selfish to put myself first. But that is something I am over coming slowly but surely.
