Blackfoot, While it's true that I do not care for predictability, it's not true that I am a drama queen..someone who craves emotional turmoil. Quite the opposite in fact.
You have to understand that there are very few things that *drive* my H to seek me out physically and emotionally. His job woes did that, though I felt stifled by it. He gave me intense hugs, was always seeking out my reassurance, my presence. His sex drive, for whatever reason, does not encourage him to seek me out. So there is a part of me that feels a bit left out of his current metamorphosis...and it all feels familiar to me..we've been down this road before.
Yeah that radio drivel has got to GO. I relate more to her Man side of things..loving those men whom I am attracted to. And not all of them were conventionally attractive, so I don't want to make it out like it's all about looks. One guy was downright weird looking but I thought he was tops and was very attracted to him. The first thing I noticed about my H was his well-developed pecs, so there stupid radio lady.
My workouts are going great, thank you for asking! I think that is the one thing keeping me sane right now, is my new focus on taking good physical care of myself. I've lost about 5 lbs so far. Still a ways to go but I've always been one to see the half full glass, ya know.
You know, I have no problem doing something like the winery again. I just need some reciprocation from time to time. As I posted somewhere else, the last un-prompted (that means me telling him to arrange a date, etc) date was 3 years ago. Even you in your deep admiration for MrH would surely find that lacking.
And.......the problem is not that he doesn't have the time. It's that he's forgotten that he is required to do these types of things. For some reason, we as humans are more motivated when our needs are not being met. When they are, we sorta lapse into this benignly lazy state.
Finally, you are right that I have, ahem, a TON more time to plan. However, my ability to execute a date is as limited as his time. Everything I do I do with 3 kids underneath my feet. I remember the 'winery' day with a mixture of "whew! we pulled it off, somehow" and "wasn't that nice". The baby was trying to un-do everything I was doing, the kids were trying to eat the pastries as fast as I could cook em, etc etc blah blah. He was *amazed* when he saw it and kept saying over and over, How did you pull this off with all the kids around??
So if I can do it, so can he.
However. That wasn't really the point of my whole thread. I think Journey (or was it LFL?) may be right that I'm a bit depressed and worrying that something is wrong with me and H. He *is* being a bit of a turkey since he started his new job but nothing that would cause this amount of consternation.
Oh and he didn't put in a movie last night. Unbelievable.
His whole family is movie-crazed. Goes to the theater several times a week, etc. H has bragged so many times that he has outgrown this but it turns out that he was just too tired to do it.
At any rate, I'm aware that the power to turn this ship around lies with me. As soon as I muster some emotional energy, I'll do it.
Anyone have any tried-and-true methods for restoring your EC when it gets a little rusty?
