Thank you GH for taking the time to respond. I don't know if you are right about my H coming around when he realizes that I am not there for him...my best friend says the same thing. I do know that the way that I have been going has been completely unhealthy for me, and for him. The strange thing is, we still have this incredible R. I mean we still talk and laugh and get along great. Its so weird to still be able to connect with him like this, despite the fact that we are getting D. There is a small part of me that still feels like this won't happen, but I don't want to think that too much.

Anyway, thanks again for your feedback and for taking the time to respond. I haven't been on the boards in a long time b/c I felt like I had no place giving advice, since my life is such a disaster. I want to check up on Tim and see what happened with him. And you as well...hope you had a nice trip to Ireland. Take care.