At this point, since H. has filed, you have nothing to lose, right? So if I were in your shoes, this is what I would do.
I would call H. and ask him to meet with you to talk about something. Hopefully he would agree to meet in person; this would be better than over the phone.
I would just ask him, straight out, WHY he does this. [Imdi, in all the threads here I've not read about any spouse that misleads as much as your H. does.] The holding of hands, the touches, the "I miss you being next to me" stuff. Maybe he truly does mean it, and if so, then WHY the divorce?
Something is very wrong here! I don't understand why your H. is doing these things but I feel that you need to call him on it in order to get out of your pain. If he really wants to follow through on the D., well, then why is he saying and doing all of these things that are SO opposite of a person wanting a D? That is what you need to flat out ask him.
There is nothing wrong with divorcing amicably, and that's one thing. But your H. is being far too conflicting in his legal actions vs. how he talks to you, touches you, etc. You need him to explain this, Imdi.
I hope I haven't been too harsh, but your last post rubbed me the wrong way and I am hoping you can get some answers from him soon.
Hugs!
Most of us really marry only once. First love endures, even unto our dying day. And we never really divorce.
