Thanks for the hugs Grateful...

Here is my brief update for today. H and I went to get our taxes done last night. He picked me up. Had a nice drive. During the drive, H said it was nice to see me and he reached over and held my hand. Got to our appointment. H was very nice, acting like nothing was wrong. At one point, he reached over and rubbed the back of head. We were talking while the accountant was doing his thing. I was telling H how my father was bribing me with money to eat over the weekend. H said "that's what i have to do...take you to dinner so you eat." ( ) He also said "you know what i was thinking about last week when i was in Florida?" I said no. He said, "that we should go to breakfast at (at this place we used to go)." I said, yeah, that's a good idea. We finished up and drove home. We were talking about being at the beach, and i was telling him something, and he said "i miss it there." I told him i missed having him there. He dropped me off. He called me about 11pm to thank me for the cookies (i had given him cookies that my grandma made). He said "it made me feel close to you." He said its hard, but he said "i wish i could open my eyes, and see you next to me. i would hold you so close to me." Now, I am trying not to cry, and i said i would like that. We continued to talk for a while. I did ask him again about breakfast...he said maybe we'd go this Saturday.

That was really it. Any feedback? Comments? I am utterly and completely confused