Its funny, a few weeks ago, my horoscope talked about "detachment" and how i had to do it. I thought it was so interesting given my current situation. I am trying to remind myself that i will get through this. But, when you are in the middle of it, and all of the emotions are so raw, its hard to believe anything. I do believe that everything happens for a reason.
Hope - my MIL forwarded me some email that she got, but she wrote a little note at the top and signed it with her name. She did call me several weeks ago and left a message, and when she was getting off the phone, she did refer to herself as "mom." So, i guess she must know that something changed since then.
I know that it isn't over. I told my H how i had been looking for apartments, hoping that maybe he would see that i am starting to accept things. But, i don't know if he really cares. After i said it, he started talking about how lonely he feels and told me about some dream that he had where he had to do something all by himself and that he had no place to go. I don't know if i should believe him. My feeling is he is going to move in with ow and her kids. Although, i can't imagine my H living with 2 small children 24/7. But, whatever, that's his choice.
I do feel slightly better today (maybe 1%). I guess things are starting to sink in. I don't know.
