:talking to myself: Well, I've taken to heart (almost) Corri's thought that X just can't give me what I want (love, affection, attention, sex).
What's the next part of equation? Can I live with that? Of course I can. In fact, (barring the occasional feelings of pain and worthlessness and sadness) I do.
Do I want to? Well, I suppose, in theory, no. But in practice, things are a little different. I could kick X out, set up a child custody schedule, start dating (assuming I could meet someone). But would I really be any happier?
