Quote: The real issue is NOT your R with HIM but your R will all men it seems to me. You made the comment that you have basically never had a good R. Always pick the wrong guys. Or they pick you. Maybe you need to focus on that and ask yourself why.
Ding, ding, ding. We have a winner.
Seriously, you are 100% right. The answer is -- well --- I'm not sure. FOO issues? Sure. My own subconscious fear of intimacy? Absolutely.
But part of me says that these are problems that can't be solved, only managed. And that they're going to follow me into any relationship I get involved in. You know, wherever you go, there you are. (see Landica's confession thread). They just emerge in different ways.
And how to *fix* myself? It seems like, to say the least, an uphill battle.
