Quote: You didn't remark on what I think was most important, that after investing so many years in our marriages, we can make it through this short trial. And it will be short in comparison to all those good years, Frank. AND the good years to come.
Yes, I know we have invested a lot into our marriages, both her and me. And these are short trials.
I'm reacting to her, which is bringing me way down.
She's very, very distant and aloof. Hasn't touched me in any way, and is speaking to me in very 'polite' sentences, like you would talk to someone you don't know very well, or at least have no real feelings for. For example, after dinner she said in a very pleasant but polite way "Thank you for being my companion for dinner tonite".
What??? It's like she's a space alien again.
She did tell me that she needed to go for a drive to release a bunch of 'crap' that she said built up inside her this week. On this trip she really didn't have any time to herself to decompress each day. So I guess she is PROCESSING and this has nothing to do with me. (our mantra).
I know it doesn't have anything to do with me but it unnerves me when she's like this because it reminds me of when OM was in the picture, she was like this then.
I'm just whining. Both my counselor and my Psych told me this week that she will vasselate back and forth, towards me and away from me. And it has nothing to do with me, and I shouldn't be concerned.
I just need to express my fears and that's all. I'll find time to cry them out tonite and I'll feel better.
Quote: You can do this.
I know I can. My Counselor told me yesterday that I should be GRATEFUL for how things have gone so far. I have been blessed by OM being gone, having intimacy with W for a week and the fact that she isn't doing anything concrete on the divorce track, and she is really pondering her life. Even thinking about me and how fun our life was at times.
Gotta focus on the positives! I wish I wasn't fighting two battles at the same time. I will be so glad when the depression and anxiety is gone forever. It keeps knocking me down and hurting my ability to DB.
